Monday, April 17, 2006

 

loneliness

Exams are around the corner. Everyone's frantically studying, each in their individual rooms... and what am i doing? hmm... Sometimes i really wonder. The books are within sight, the stationaries are on the left. Preparations for "Operation Mugging" have been done. But something doesn't seem right. Am I missing out on something?

I'm feeling lonely...

"Of course lar! You've been away from home for 3 months!"

I wish it was that simple.

"Lord, I don't know why I'm feeling this way. But it seemed as though You're missing in my life. Where are You Lord? I can't feel Your love anymore... It just feels so empty and hollow inside. What wrong have I done? What have I done that You had to turn Your back on me?"

"Look at your life and tell me, what have u done so far?"

"Studying, getting to know people, socializing..."

"And where am I in that picture?"

"But they are just normal everyday stuffs Lord"

"Am I just a sunday God? Who's on vacation from monday to saturday?"

-sigh-

It's so easy to put God out of the picture really. It's as simple as getting yourself involved in too many ministries, fitting your schedule with activities after activities. God is out of the picture... And it's only on sundays that His name suddenly appears all so prevalent in the morning.

"Dear Lord, I'm sorry for the many times that I've put you out of the picture. I have to admit that it's really tough remembering you in the everyday things that I do. But that's what You've asked of us in return really. It was the reason why You came, and died. So that we can have personal relationship with You. My life is Yours Lord. Once again, I surrender it to You. Lord You guide my ways and light my path. For my life is nothing if it ain't for Your glory."

And the loneliness went away

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

 
But the other criminal rebuked him. "Don't you fear God," he said, "since you are under the same sentence? We are punished justly, for we are getting what our deeds deserve. But this man has done nothing wrong."
Then he said, "Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom." - Luke 23:40-42

I was moved to tears when he said those words. How clearly have we forgotten? How blatently complacent have we grown? That none of this was really deserving of us, that we have turned our backs on Him from the very day of our birth. We have failed Him. But God was willing to do anything, even till the point of death itself, to bring us back to Him. That's how much God loves us, that's the extent that He was willing to go to win our hearts back to Him.

But what have we done?
1. Should drum sets be allowed in church?
2. Falling asleep during sermons but energised after the service
3. Being perfect on Sundays
4. Erm... You mean 3 John exist?? (I'm sure some are looking at their bibles now)
5. "If only..."
6. "If I had the time, I would have..."
7. "Lord, I have done so much for You, but look at me now!"

The list goes on and on... But the point is, WE DO NOT DESERVE IT. Never should we have the perception that we are otherwise. And as Easter approaches, read the story again, follow the steps which Jesus took. Gaze upon the Saviour of the world on the cross and listen to the desperate cries of a man. "Jesus, remember me when You come into Your kingdom"

Carrying up our cross daily means much more than doing QT and being a good person. Do you know how much God loves you? That He would pay the price for your life with His. That He would be willing to accept the pain and the insults, just so that He could see you again in paradise? If He could, what about you?

"You would be justified in condemning me..." cried the man. He knew where his sins would have led him to. He may have never seen Jesus, much less heard about Him. But he felt His love- sacrificial love which forgives, and saves. And he gave his life to Jesus. We may have accepted Jesus for different reasons; but this Easter, let us look back at the life of Jesus. Give Him your heart, and live a life that honours His name. It's only in full acknowledgement of His love that you'll be truely able to love others.

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